epiphanies

2004-02-27T15:10:00.000-05:00

it's been awhile
on closeness....and Jesus' death on the cross for me

I haven't blogged for so long....i guess i find it kinda strange that people i know will be reading this....and even worse that people i don't know will be reading this....yah....too weird....so i don't think i'll blog about anything personal....sometimes i prefer to just keep things to myself....i hate being invaded....i hate getting too close....when i don't want to be...too scary...

PASSION
I went to see it...i cried....and i cried...and i cried....it's one thing to read about Jesus dying on the cross...and rising again...but it's another to see that an innocent man...a man who was so holy....so righteous...innocent....the man who is God died for the sake that I should live eternally with God who loves me...to see someone like that to actually see the brutality...the pain the blood....it's really a wake up call....it shakes me to think about it.....i can't look at the cross the same way ever again....and i can imagine even less being able to pay for my owh sin by death on the cross....nobody...NOBODY but Jesus could do a thing like that......nobody....

2003-11-02T21:48:00.001-05:00

Original Creation Date
11.1.2003 10:48AM
on aa journal

falling
....in and out, in and out....yes and no, yes and no......

either way, i can`t decide....coffee can do alot to a girl....guy, we`ll call him joe called me up and asked me to go for coffee.....so i went with joe and he wanted to take me to a place outside to sit and drink our coffee...so we walked around for awhile...and he took me to this bench next to the canal....and we drank our coffee and talked....drank and talked, drank and talked and i realized that there`s so much i don`t know....(but want to know) about him....i could`ve talked for another two hours....maybe it`s cause we have so much in common....or maybe it`s cause i don`t really know him yet....either way i think it`s alright to get to know him better....? it`s not like i like him......yet.....or do i??
falling in and out, in and out, yes and no, yes and no

2003-11-02T21:48:00.000-05:00

Original Creation Date
10.29.2003 9:18PM
on aa journal

inspiration implication creation
I saw a hot-air balloon...and it was my sudden inspiration, which has implications of a creation.....
my creation:
hot-air balloon floats high
goes up and up, it`s gotta come down
sometime....
what makes you think our hot-air balloon will fly high
for all time.
it`s gotta come down,
sometime....
but that something there
that fire in your eyes makes me think
there`s gonna be enough fire to keep us
flyin` higher than high....

2003-11-01T02:44:00.000-05:00

to like or not to like.....that is the question
or if there is even that option....is it possible to learn to like someone??...or is liking someone instinctive and a simple decision??....Either way it's ALL gray to me....i honestly can't tell if i do or if i don't.....maybe we never actually like any other person at all...maybe liking isn't something that really exists....maybe relationships don't even exist....maybe i'm just overthinking

i was thinking overthinking
-relient k

2003-10-30T23:17:00.000-05:00

new to blog thingy...interesting....i guess i'll type something more interesting later....